A friend of mine was big into the whole 'vision board' thing, and this year I decided to give it a go. No, I didn't put 'contract a debilitating disease' on the vision board. Out of the 9 things I did envision I have done 3. Not bad, disease and all.
I like thinking ahead and planning. But on certain occasions I like to look back. My birthday is one of those occasions. I don't know when it began, but I have a huge (unrealistic) love for birthdays. It is a personal day to think about the past year - what went well - hear from people you haven't heard from in a while - celebrations - dancing - gifts - friends - family. It is your own personal holiday. A day to feel special. A day to be over the top.
I enjoy being over the top. I unapologetically love balloons. I wear opera gloves. Last year I put together a great outfit. So great a man left a restaurant and came outside as I was walking by to say I was rocken it. Now I am resigned to yoga pants and slippers.... Being sick for 5 months out of the past year has altered how I reflect on this past year. But it also has altered how I am physically able to celebrate my birthday.
This birthday isn't what I planned or particularly wanted, but not even Lyme disease can ruin my love for birthdays. Today I reflect. Tomorrow I will get gussied up and pretend like I am not sick. Throw the yoga pants away. Find my high heals. Gather around a table with friends. And apparently if you cry in your doctors office you may weasel your Lyme diseased way into a birthday glass of champagne!
Cheers!
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